#ive always taken things too litterally. i cant keep up with memes and sex jokes. heck i only learned how to do that in highschool honestly..
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#i have a lot of weird behaviours that ive had since ive been a kid.#like i giggle i move around a lot and kinda weirdly at times#i actually used to stim a shitton as a kid but i think somewhere along the way i realized how weird it was to do that.#i never did it in front of others tho#i also loved stuffed animals. never grew out of that. tho o did try tp get rid of my favourite ones...now i cant find them anywhere#theres a lot of small things like that#small insecurities. small worries about how ill be judged by others.#i slept in my parents bed frequently till grade three. i had so many nightmares.#i had a lot of these small behaviours that i knew would be read as weird. so o stiffled them as much as i could#i didnt wanna be called weird like the others. and i wasnt. but i still was strange.#ive always taken things too litterally. i cant keep up with memes and sex jokes. heck i only learned how to do that in highschool honestly..#the reason im so crass now aways was honestly a pretty despate attempt to fit in.#and god things like joking still are horrible. people could never tell when i was joking so ive just started clarifying everything i say-#-so i dont annoy or offend others. im really bad at sarcasm and my humor always was cutting comments.#i only managed to basically beat that out pf myself in highschool#ive lost a lot of these pieces of myself. and i hate it. it feels like theres just something missing and ill never be able to recover it.#i hate being the freak. the loner. a lot of the time when im w/ others i feel this wall between me and them.#its huge. it feels like im trying to break through. screaming and crying at others to notice me. but they cant.#maybe thats partially why im so bad with others. i know right away who i like and dont.#if someones too loud too push too extroverted i wont interact with them. i honstly cant.#i do best when i can relate heavily to others. when i can understand the things left unsaid#honestly it sometimes feels like im in an alternate dimention looking in sometimes.#its hard.#really hard.#*sigh*#diary#personal#its days like these i would love to be tested for adhd and autism. i know somethings off. but i dont fully know what or which.#i actually function pretty well now surprisingly? its just those two things seem to be interfearing a lot with my life.
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